I must admit, though I didn't plan to ever talk about it, but this presidential election threatened to put me in a downward spiral. I have never been so emotionally charged by an election, never so negatively affected.
I really REALLY don't like Obama. Not that I loved Romney, but more than that I dislike Obama. I am conservative. I am a republican. I am a Christian. I don't like anything that Obama stands for.
I was flabbergasted by the election results. I know that many of my very own family members don't share these feelings. I am not looking to debate or make anyone angry. I just feel like I can best move forward by sharing these feelings. This blog is serving as my journal today. No hard feelings.
We all tried to stay awake for the election results. Being that the time had just changed, we were all falling asleep on the sofa before 10 pm. So we went to bed. I had a feeling that Keith didn't stay in bed, though I never woke up to confirm that.
I woke up the next morning and went to turn on the TV. I could not believe what I saw. I held it together until the kids left for the school bus. Then I went back upstairs to Keith, who was still in bed...and started bawling. So sad...
I had to work that day. I wouldn't offer the TV to any patients as I was afraid they would put on news. I cried on the way to work, I cried when I saw my friends at work. We hugged. (We are thankfully an office that shares political views so we comforted each other). I was so very depressed that day.
I vowed to avoid news for 4 years. I vowed not to watch "that man" on TV. I told Keith that listening to patriot politics in the car would not be allowed when traveling (which we are doing tomorrow).
A song that we have sung at church several times began to stand out to me on The Message (satellite radio, which is the ONLY thing I have listened to since that disastrous day). It is "my God's not dead..." by the Newsboys. It began to bring me comfort. While I still think America as we have known it will not be the same, possibly ever, I have found great comfort in this song I have known far longer than the few weeks since the election. I don't know why exactly, but, I love the feeling it gives me...especially midway through when the lyrics;
"let heaven roar...and fire fall...shake the ground...with the sound...of revival" repeat about three times starting strong but escalating into pure worship and praise. It brings tears to my eyes every time.
So. As we prepare to spend at least nine hours traveling to Ohio tomorrow and Wednesday, if Keith can't resist the urge to put stupid patriot politics on the radio...I will plug in my earphones and play this song of comfort to myself. It's always good to know that no matter what differing opinions may exist from people with the greatest intentions or purest of faith or kindness of heart, that in MY world, God is STILL and ALWAYS in control. That is always the greatest comfort to me!
Peace. And Happy Thanksgiving!
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So sad to find out that you've been down lately :(.
I take comfort in the fact that many of the intelligent, sensible people I love and respect (you, Keith, both sets of grandparents, David's family) have different political views than I do--I trust all of you, and that trust gives me peace when politics don't turn out the way I wanted them to. I figure we all have different insight and different limitations, and it brings me peace to know that my conservative family members see hope when I can't--maybe the same idea can comfort you. I love you! Happy Thanksgiving! Hugs to Keith and the kids :).
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